Staring Back

My stomach and intestines sound like they are celebrating the 4^th of July or New Year’s Eve with firework explosions down there.  Or maybe thunderstorms and lightening.  You get the picture.  What to eat, what not to eat…I do more experiments than Dr. Frankenstein, only with food.  Recently, I tried kale and also Swiss chard.  Each sautéed in a little olive oil with fresh garlic.  Yummy.  I think the idea is to shake things up a bit and alter what I eat.  I’m so predictable in my food choices my stomach gets bored.  Sigh.

I talked to my therapist yesterday and got some more advice about the drumming thing.  I don’t know what else to call it; “the drumming thing” doesn’t sound very enlightened, but then again, I’m not...  Next time I do it, which will be today after I put the new patch on; I’m going to ask for help from the great beyond.  Someone, something (like a spirit guide, be it animal or person) to get me through this maze of pain and stomach distress because I’m going mad from going up and down the depths.

But just how deep are the depths?  The abyss?  I walk around it all the time, sometimes staring into it.  But is it really staring back into me?  Is it true, that when you look into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you.  Nietzsche thought so.  Of course, old Friedrich had his share of issues; don’t we all?

I am a great mystery book fan (though my eyes are getting tired so much easier these days, reading, which is my all-time favorite pastime, is difficult) and have read all of Jo Nesbo’s books.  But they just released the very first “Harry Hole” book, called “The Bat”.  It was never released in the states.  It’s a good story, but you can tell he was just beginning to write because it’s not nearly as well-crafted as the others.  Worth the read, but if you start with that one, you might be tempted not to read the other seven, which are fabulous.  So I say, start with “Redbreast”, read the other six, and then for fun, read the first... It really doesn’t make a lot of difference, character wise.

Okay. New patch is on, the heat is on, I’m in pain but my tummy has settled.  Time to dive up or down and meet a guide or two!  Wish me luck!!!