I didn’t sleep well last night and lack of sleep causes my pain to shoot up . I need to get at least 8 hours for the pain to be at a “6” on the 1-10 scale. Today it’s at an 9 and it’s not even 10 a.m. Then I get angry and then it gets worse. It is beyond frustrating, all the things that make it worse. Here’s a little lesson on negative/positive thinking:
Pain is:
Worse with lack of sleep Better with more sleep
Worse when I don’t eat Eases off with food, especially protein
Worse when I do too much Better with a lot of rest
HORRIFIC without medication Tolerable with every dose
Worse when I’m too emotional Better if I meditate, listening to soothing music
Worse if I never emote Better if I allow myself to cry occasionally
Worse without “alternative” care Better with acupuncture, reiki, massage
Worse with isolation too long Better when I see someone once a week
That’s all I can think of at the moment. Feel free to add your own in the comment section. There is one which is hard to write about because it depresses me. A friend called yesterday and said I should throw my walker in the car and go somewhere for a short walk. Good advice. It’s pretty hilly in Seattle but there are some flat places I could go. Obviously, exercise helps with a host of things if you can do it. My pain feels worse if I move too much, but if I don’t move enough, other things start to fall apart…..I get constipated from the drugs, my heart races, my muscles atrophy….etc, etc.
But even walking, which is about all I can do, makes my pain shoot through the roof. I went out for dinner with a friend last night and I can’t sit for more than 20 minutes without horrific pain so while doing that is enjoyable, I pay a high price. But the socializing is good for me and I have to get out once in a while!!! Balance. It’s all about balance.
And today sun is out, the sky is blue, it’s going to be in the high fifties and it’s Super Bowl Sunday which means I can go somewhere and there won’t be crowds of people.
Sometimes I’m so frustrated I could cry.
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