Monday, October 1, 2012
After yesterday’s post, I thought I’d write one that’s a bit more positive and may give someone out there some hope about pain meds.
I am officially off the methadone!! I took my last one on Friday, which was a day earlier than planned, but I felt up for it. I was a bit nervous feeling and I must mention, I’ve had insomnia for several weeks, but I’m positive it was because of the withdrawal. Last night, blessedly, I slept. I had left a message for my pain doc for some temporary sleep meds, but I already take anti-anxiety med so they called this morning and said no. Then I said I slept last night and they were thrilled.
It’s true I am now on fentanyl (patches) and my breakthrough medication, but I was in such horrible shape just five weeks ago, I don’t think I’d be here (truly) to tell the tale if I hadn’t taken action. They informed me that very few of their patients are on Fentanyl. I asked her why. She said I was a good candidate because she knows how conservative and responsible I am with these drugs (I truly am…..to the point of it causing her (my nurse) to want to strangle me occasionally. I can’t help it; the constipation drives me nuts.
Right now I still can’t go out much because of the pain. It’s now about a 6 or 7 on the 1-10 scale (when it gets bad) and stays at about a 5 if I lay flat. But I need to go out occasionally….I still have help with that, doctor appointments and cleaning. Don’t know if that will ever change. The point is:
It can be done!!! And, the bonus? I am much, much calmer. Everyone has noticed. When people get upset with me, I remain calm. When a bill is wrong, I remain calm....etc, etc. Very new experience for me....well, new from the last 10 years....before the methadone I was calm too.
Posted by Sherri at 12:00 PM