Saturday, November 22, 2014
My gosh it’s been a long time since I posted. I think I’m feeling sad that I haven’t done enough to promote my blog so others with pain related issues will see it. Not that I’m a great writer; just so they won’t feel so alone, like I do much of the time.
I’ve had a UTI recently and it hasn’t cleared up so my doc was supposed to call in a script yesterday but the pharmacy said they never got it and now I’m waiting for someone on call to call back but they won’t fix it on a weekend. I’m going to call them back (they said give it 30 minutes and It’s already more than that) and tell them if I have a bladder/kidney related emergency this weekend because I didn’t get the script, they’ll see me coming LOL. Actually, there were crystals in my urine. I know it’s bad for a cat, but my doc said it wasn’t “necessarily” bad for me (I didn’t mention cats). But it could be a kidney thing.
So. Surgery. It is scheduled for the end of January and I got all the questions I had answered and I have a pre op date but I’m still a little bit on the fence. Not as much as before. The pain has been so outrageous I just want to hang on to the olive branch the doc is offering….even a 20% decrease in the pain (20 to 80 is the averages) would be welcomed. But I can feel them growing in my other leg too and the pain is getting bad there. We shall see.
Other than that, I am spent. I had an outrageous dream the other night. In it, I was sitting behind the wheel of a car at a stop sign. Suddenly, the passenger door opened and some strange man I’d never seen came in with a gun and held it to my head. And in the dream, I had the clear thought “This is what you said you wanted. This is what it looks like” (Death). But instead, I took his face in my hands, looked him in the eye, and said “I’m sorry you had such a hard life” He looked at me, exited the car, and as I sighed with relief he shot himself in the head. The last thing I recall were police and paramedics everywhere. Then I woke up. Reminded me of that show “Medium”
The doc just called. But I have no one to pick it up and they don’t deliver on the weekend. Maybe they’ll make an exception since I’m so uncomfortable.
Posted by Sherri at 11:28 AM