Monday, December 23, 2013
My gastrointestinal problems have resurfaced with a vengeance. It had settled for a while; but apparently, I have been eating too much, which my normal standards, is not enough. But my belly can’t handle too much of anything. I’m also in a fair amount of pain today. And I can’t believe its Christmas the day after tomorrow. I miss talking to Ted. It’s been nine months since he passed and I still think about him a lot. We shared so much; our pain, our challenges, our stories….sometimes with a heavy heart, sometimes laughing ourselves sick at our situation. I’m glad his trial is over. He hated this time of year.
What can I write that I haven’t already? The abyss starts to close in and panic ensues. I need to find a way to stave it off. How to walk away from it instead of around it. How to find peace where none exists. It’s a challenge. Mornings are the hardest, especially this time of year. Our shortest, darkest day just passed, but it will be a while before there is more light than dark during the day. Living in this dark, wet, dreary climate isn’t the best of choices, but I’m not going anywhere at this stage.
Anyway…..Happy Holidays to you all…
Posted by Sherri at 10:09 AM